He sighed from the depth of his spirit and said,
"Why does this generation seek a sign?
Amen, I say to you, no sign will be given to this generation." (Mk 8:11-13)
for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea
that is driven and tossed about by the wind.
For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord,
since he is a man of two minds, unstable in all his ways. (Jas 1:1-11)
Oh, i'm a doubter. And it does get tiring. It is my mind that keeps the surf up, but i suppose it will be my mind (ego) that is soothed and surrenders to faith, becoming 'one mind'. It more often than not seems to be arrogance, an inflexible mind, that surrenders, retreats or ridicules that which might cause change.
i change so much, why then do i fear it? A mind created by God now plagued by Evil? Is that doubt? If so, showing Evil the door and calming the mind of its own endless drivel might be a good start. But then, i'm already doing that, it seems, with three steps forwards and two back.
Oremus:
I pray Lord, not for a sign to appease my ego's doubts, rather i pray that i can continue forwards on your path. And with each step i suppose nothing, i expect nothing, i am empty of all but hope and love and i pray, i give thanks, for coming closer to you, for coming Home. I pray that you encourage and shelter all those on your path, that they might all come Home. Amen.
Deo gratias.
"Why does this generation seek a sign?
Amen, I say to you, no sign will be given to this generation." (Mk 8:11-13)
for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea
that is driven and tossed about by the wind.
For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord,
since he is a man of two minds, unstable in all his ways. (Jas 1:1-11)
Oh, i'm a doubter. And it does get tiring. It is my mind that keeps the surf up, but i suppose it will be my mind (ego) that is soothed and surrenders to faith, becoming 'one mind'. It more often than not seems to be arrogance, an inflexible mind, that surrenders, retreats or ridicules that which might cause change.
i change so much, why then do i fear it? A mind created by God now plagued by Evil? Is that doubt? If so, showing Evil the door and calming the mind of its own endless drivel might be a good start. But then, i'm already doing that, it seems, with three steps forwards and two back.
Oremus:
I pray Lord, not for a sign to appease my ego's doubts, rather i pray that i can continue forwards on your path. And with each step i suppose nothing, i expect nothing, i am empty of all but hope and love and i pray, i give thanks, for coming closer to you, for coming Home. I pray that you encourage and shelter all those on your path, that they might all come Home. Amen.
Deo gratias.
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